study study & study

STUDY is wat i suppose to do for the coming 1 n half months ..... but instead of study i am doing exactly the opposite ...... really feel like slapping myself so tat i can start study .... next week is test week .... but i havent started to study any single subject ... maybe becoz tis mock tests come too fast ... tell u wat is more scary /... now also dunno which day got wat subject .... n somemore lects havent finsh all the syllabus but the whole book is tested .... wth .... think i probably failed .... so disappointed yesterday .... receive my test paper for last progress test ... i actually failed badly ... sad .. coz i noe how to do ... but not enuff info .... i guiess i have to start "constant" study in order to pass the paper ....... need to fill the whole book in my brain ...... but i guess tis fail comes in the rite time ...... it can motivate me to study ... hopefully .... anyway .... still idling ard unproductively .....sad sad sad .... now juz me alone in my hse ..... haih ... cousins all go back home town .... hope can study with the private time given .... but i think sleep is wat i will do ..... wth .... wat am i thinkinf .... cannot ... muz focus on studying ........................ arrrghhhhhh